If I was a Bird

"At other times I cover with self pity or work aimlessly through reality so.....Occasionally I choose to travel alone....but never fulfill my possibility ....so mostly I attempt to achieve balance"

I starting to love Floetry. They really had to grow on me, but their messages really come to me sometimes. I'm really feeling, "If I was a Bird" right now. It's so sensual and makes me feel so free. Sometimes I wish they I didn't have to work this hard to overcome whatever hurdles I have. I wish I could "let it rain to wash away my pain" as the song says. There are so many obstacles that we face as humans. We all are rpesented with our personal challenge, and the rules to overcome them are often unclear and not present at all. My biggest challenge is overcoming my low self esteem. It's a love hate relationship. I'm the type that can walk into a room, and after an hour everyone will know who I am. I'm a people person. I'm funny, charismatic, and present so much vitality to the equation. Even though I appear so wrong on the outside, on the inside my building blocks are crumbled and worn. I'm a very sensitive person, so over the years the taunting and yelling and emotional abuse broke down those once strong bricks. Day by day I try to rebuild the foundation though...and hopefully one day that foundation will be the key to a strong and better me.