Just being honest....

It's 11:00 PM. I got in 15 minutes ago. My mom called me at 10:30 pm. She knew exactly where I was and who I was with. I was with the same guy. Him, his dad, and his friend picked me up. We went to his house. She called, and when I told her I was on my way home, she hung up in my face. (Side note: she told me it did not look right for me to be in the car with 5 other males. I told her it was 3 and one of them was the guy's father. She told me that is not ladylike at all.)

She really irritates me to high heavens. I guess because I am "a girl" I should be confined to my house and "home before dark". I had more freedom in hgih school, and that's saying a lot because I couldn't do anything in high school unless it was school related.

I really thinks it boils down to the sex thing. I got into it with her in January about I was on birth control therefore I MUST be having sex. Now everytime I'm out with a boy, she thinks I'm possibly having sex with that person. Especially if I am with them after dark. Oh and I'm a ho. I'ma be preggo soon I guess lol.

I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't. If I stay in the house all day and stay on the computer I am "depressed". If I am not depressed I'm not doing anything constructive with my life. BUT she doesn't want me to get a summer job. She wants me to relax. If I go out everyday, she says I'm being "fast in the streets" and that's not ladylike.

If I stay in all day, I need to get out more. If I'm on the phone she feels is necessary to give me relationship tips. You know the ones she should have given to me growing up nto when I am 21 years old and have my own paradigm about the world.

I wish I could scream to her. I'm making good grades. I'm not having sex. Been abstinent for 7 months. Plan on keeping it that way until I'm in along term committed relationship. I'm not doing anything illegal. I don't think... lol Anyway, Not doing anything I shouldn't be doing. I am 21. I respect her wishes, but I am an adult. I should have the right for her to trust me and know that she raised me right and I will come in a decent hour and uphold the morals she taught me growing up. But I am unfortunately a 4'4.5 child. I have no say.

And she wonders why I don't come home often. Maybe once every 2 months. When I leave July 31, she prolly won't see me til Labor Day. Just being honest.