I can't believe that this is my fourth year in college. My last and final year. Thank the Lord for blessing me and allowing me to see this day!!



I'm in summer school now, and it's so durn intense. I hate the teacher, but I will presevere...hopefully with an A. Physics is no joke. It's about 10 of us in the class, and we joke if we can get through this class, I KNOW we can get into med school. He teacher for 2.5 hours a day so...you know it's tiring.



Since I'm in summer school I have no life. No more catching up with friends, unless it's on the weekend :(. When i have time I just sleep and sleep and sleep LOL. I've cut a lot of people out of my life and introduced a few into my life.



I have learned not to rely on "friends" too much. I'm trying to revamp my true friends. I don't know if I posted about it earlier, but I feel as if I have drifted so far away from my old "best friends". They are interested in partying, clubbing, sexing, and etc. You know the life of a college student. I'm just not into that. I've never been. Sometimes I just want to go out with them and catch up on life, but they would rather meet up @ the club and etc. If it's not surrounded around that, they're not up for it. We've been friends since high school, but I understand that people change and friendship drift. It's cool.



My other friend, I feel like I have to play the "Rules" with her. That's why I decided to get my distance. When I call, she doesn't answer. When I txt, I might not get one back until days and days later. When i don't call she worries about me and wonders where have I been. *shrugs* Friendships are supposed to be 50/50 right? Why can't you call me? We have a great friendship when we are close to each other, but with distance the friendship goes out the window. You know the phrase, "He's just not that into you?" That's I feel with her even though she's a female. *tsk tsk* She knows she is my bff because from time to time I have told her, but she has never said it back. That says a lot to me. She is as sweet as pie, but I dunno i think she sticks around for other reasons.



I think after graduation I'm going to change my phone number and just add whoever is needed. Start anew and clear my contacts that I don't use much.



Other than that everything is fine. The weather is beautiful, everything is going as according to plans, and I'm happy. YAAAAY! TTYL lemme go study!



My song for today is Ordinary People. (duh because of the subject) I make mistakes in life and go through my ups and downs, but I'm still just an ordinary person. Ups and Downs is to be expected. I will never know all the answers to life, or pretend I do.



"We're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go"

I make a lot of posts and blogs on here so i know yall ahve heard numeroous stories about my dad. He's a character. I just wanted to post a few conversations or recollect on some things that have made me smile or giggle over the years.



I asked my dad to hold my nephew for a minute while I fix the babe some food. How about when I come back my dad is holdin this child to the china cabinet whisperin, "When you get a lil bit bigger, I'll teach you everything. Like how to open these cabinets. Your grandma think we all stupid. Everybody know she keep candy and sprite in there. And if you share with me, I'll teach you ALL THE HIDING SPOTS OF THE HOUSE!! There's a whole bunch of sh*t....I mean stuff in this house for you to find!"

....I just died and went to laughter heaven

Kristen: Do I have a curfew?
Dad: Look Kris. Me and ya mom are old. We don't have time to be runnign up behind you. You bout the age now where u can just raise yaself right? You know us old people go to bed at 8pm. If ya a** mess up and get in trouble after 8pm and somehow end up in jail. Just remember that you gonna stay in there until morning. Cuz we're old, go to bed early, and we're deaf. We can't hear when they give you that 1 phone call to call us at 2am. Just do right. Don't get pregnant, don't do drugs, eat ya vegetables all that good stuff.

Little kid: Why is she in a wheelchair
Dad: (Doesn't know what to say)....Um...she has a disease called laziness. She just lazy. Reaaaaaaal lazy.

Dad: (69 yrs old) Kris you know any new dances?
Kris: Not really
Dad: What the h*** they teaching you up there? You're in a sorority right? You should know how to do the stanky leg and stuff!

Dad: (SK's mom), have you taught Kris stuff that gurls suppose to know. You know like how to walk in heels and switch when you walk
SK's mom: No, I teach her VALUABLE things like obedience, patience,
Dad: Well that good. I teach her all the IMPORTANT stuff then like telling them guys where the h*** to go when they act up

Kris: (1st grade) I'm not going back to school
Dad: Why?
Kris: They're going to kill Barney if I go back.
Dad: Not to worry. I killed him yesterday, but they said he died of natural causes. You going to school tommorrow.

Kris: HAPPY BIRTHDYA DADDY!! You're 69!!
Dad; Kris..you haven't heard? When you turn 65 you can skip birthdays. It's on that lil AARP card. I'm not celebrating this year. I'll be 69 next year. Thanx though

This summertime has made me realize that some of the people whom I claim are so close to me are in fact farther on their side of the line. There are two people in my life right now that I would give my world too. I would do anything to protect and make sure these people are happy because I love them dearly, but lately I've been noticing that maybe they don't feel the same. Because of this, next school year I will focus on making more friendship that are not so one sided, and hopefully I'll end the year great.

I'm just noticing things that I never realized. It's this one guy in particular that I am krazy about. Even though I have weighed my options and I know these dude is not even in my league. Isn't very very bright, not financially stable, no long term goals, but his personality is wonderful. He is so funny and has a lot of street smarts. I love his personality and how he is so sweet and because of that I consider him a close friend. I told him how I feel about our relationship, and how I wish we would take things further. He said a mere, "Ok." Well, we live 30 minutes away from each other. I told him i would love for us to chill and hang out over the summer since we are only 20-25 minutes away from each other. He said cool.

Instead he drove 4 hours to see one of my close friends that he is clearly head over heels for but doesn't want to admit it. He has come to see me once, but only because I had something of his possession that he had left on campus. No phone calls, no texts to say hello, nada. On campus, this is a person I saw and hung out with EVERYDAY. He knew if he needed something, I would always be there. I called him a few times and told him I missed him, and I texted him to make sure he was okay. Then I got to thinking, why am I doing this again. Why am I allowing him to be my priority when I am a mere option in his life. I deserve better. I ceased the calls and texts until he decided to pick up the phone and check on me. Relationship even friendship are 50/50.

Then the other situation is my supposedly best friend. Even though I have told her she is my best friend, she has never said the same. That's cool, I understand that she probably has others that she is closer to but dang. She was my roomate for a whole summer, and I was her RA for a whole year. We spent everyday together doing God knows what and we are there for each other. Now all of a sudden, I haven't heard from her since she left campus. It's like a smack in the damn face.

I used to call her over holiday breaks, but then I realized that she never answers her phone. I used to txt her, but txts go unanswered. I finally got fed up. I texted her one day when I first got home, and just stopped after she didn't respond. I feel used. I really do. I think one of my biggest problems is that I don't like confrontations. She has done other things that I didn't agree with, btu I let it slide. I didn't like the fact that she has gone the whole mile for others, but on my birthday we really didn't do much. I had to beg her to go out with me and some other friends after I was down about not doing anything for my bday. I didn't get any gifts from my probate not even a mere congratulations, but she stayed up all night making gifts and buying things for her other summer roommate. I kidna feel the only reason why she "kept peace" with me and kept a friendship with me is because I let her drive my car to work because I knew she didn't have a way. Now that I look back, it makes you think huh. Maybe the great friendships that I think I have with people are nonexistent.

This happens every year though. It makes me look back and see what is it about me that hinders me from having strong friendships, because I haven't had any long lived ones since middle/high school. I wish someone would just tell me. Until then, I'm going to continue to enjoy my summer, learn my way around Jackson with my GPS lol, and improve on a few things before school starts in the fall.

Krissie

It's one of my most shameful thoughts that as days go by I still try to shake, but I continue to think I am undeserving of love.  I feel so much resentment to those who have lives in which they are able to enjoy and experience love and joy with another.  

Nothing much goign on here! I'm on spring break and I am having a blast so far! My great aunt died last weeks o I was really down, but I had to realize everythign happens for a reason and she's in a better place. I went to my Alpha Kappa Alpha conference and had a LOT of fun! We got back on Sunday and then I spent the whole day with my best friend shopping and going out to eat. It was a LOT of fun. Then today I let my GPS get me lost and I drove 3 hrs to my house :) Now I'm just chillin and tryna keep up on my frugality mission. So far so good! I'll post pictures later!

I'm listening to Outkast. Can you tell? lol I couldn't think of anything to name this post. Nothing big has been going on in my life. I'm thinking about starting a website...but I don't know how much time I'm going to commit to it, so we'll see. 

I asked my dad to hold my nephew for a minute while I fix the babe some food. How about when I come back my dad is holdin this child to the china cabinet whisperin, "When you get a lil bit bigger, I'll teach you everything. Like how to open these cabinets. Your grandma think we all stupid. Everybody know she keep candy and sprite in there. And if you share with me, I'll teach you ALL THE HIDING SPOTS OF THE HOUSE!! There's a whole bunch of sh*t....I mean stuff in this house for you to find!

....I just died and went to laughter heaven

I am krazy about this boy.  He is sooo sweet. I just look @ him from afar now, but his personality is so on point. He's not my typical type, but he always keeps me smilin.  I found out both of his parents are disabled.  He touched me when he said his dad was his hero, because he never let having a disability get him down.  He's real chill with me, and he picks up on my vibes, but nevertheless he holds back from me. I really wish he wouldn't.  

My mama said life would be so hard
Growin up days as a black girl scarred
In so many ways though we've come so far
They just know the name they don't know the pain
So please hold your heads up high
Don't be ashamed of yourself know I
Will carry it forth til the day I die
They just know the name they don't know the pain black girl

The ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Mission: 
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria: 
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part). 

Why 1001 Days? 
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Some common goal setting tips:
1. Be decisive. Know exactly what you want, why you want it, and how you plan to achieve it. 

2. Stay Focused. Any goal requires sustained focus from beginning to end. Constantly evaluate your progress.

3. Welcome Failure. Frequently, very little is learned from a venture that did not experience failure in some form. Failure presents the opportunity to learn and makes the success more worthy.

4. Write down your goals. It clarifies your thinking and reinforces your commitment.

5. Keep your goals in sight. Review them frequently, and ensure that they are always at the forefront of your mind

The list:
January 1, 2008 
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1. Create My List and Stick to It
2. Make all A's for one semester/Make Dean's List
3. Spend less than $100 for one month
4. Keep my dorm room clean for 3 consecutive weeks
5. Wake up everyday for a month at 6 am
6. Drink nothing but water (6 cups) for 2 consecutive weeks
7. Take better care of my hair/Gain BSL
8. Take two semesters of a foreign language
9. Exercise 2 times a week for 3 weeks
10. Say goodbye to friends/associates who don't care for me or treat me wrongly
11. Travel to another state in the United States
12. Convince at least 2 other friends to create their own list.
13. Set out my clothing for the following week for one month
14. Speak with correct English grammar for 2 weeks
15. Get 100 photos developed
16. Put $1 dollar in a jar each day and spend it after March 1, 2008
17. Develop my time management skills more
18. Earn (not win) a prestigious leadership position
19. Write a goodbye letter to Chris and mean it
20. Take pictures of my campus, myself, and friends and put it in a scrapbook or photo album
21. Buy NO new clothes for a month
22. Host a party
23.  Find a Church that I like
24. Buy a car and drive it
25. Keep a diary updated for one month
26. Learn a new word every week
27. Compliment another person sincerely once a day for a week
28. Compile a book of recipes
29. Give closest friends space, devote more time for Kristen
30. Learn how to walk in Heels
31. Read one book a month.
32. Lose ten pounds
33. learn to accept a compliment graciously
34. Memorize 15 spiritual scriptures
35. Wear a different pair of shoes and purses to school, everyday for at least 2weeks.
36. Go somewhere by plane
37. Eat at a 5 star restaurant
38. Read passages from the Bible and Meditate each night for one week
39. Go one day totally internet free.
40. Pay off credit card bill and close it
41. Learn to swim
42. Visit Howard University
43. Tell people how I honestly feel for 2 weeks.
44. Sit in the front of all of my classes
45. Memorize 10 poems (0/10)
46. Compose a book of my poetry and publish one of them
47. Buy a quality makeup set
48. Go horseback riding.
49. Organize my closet and keep it this way for at least 2 weeks
50. Tell each of my Residents why I love them living on my hall
51. Join a social group for women :) (It was Alpha Kappa Alpha duhh)
52. Design a Nike shoe and buy it
53. Successfully complete the MCAT
54. Clean and redecorate my room at the house
55. Learn a full sonata on the piano
56. Go one week without spending any money at all
57. Enter a singing competition and win
58. Get and successfully keep a boyfriend for 2 months
59. Fast for 2 weeks
60. Get a chemical peel for my face/ tame my acne and scarring
61. Write reasons why I love myself for 2 weeks
62. Walk 2 miles
63. have professional portraits taken

:: For my Family::

1. Write my mother a letter and tell her what I really think about her
2. Tell my father that I love him and the reasons why
3. Write a poem and send it to my brother
4. Spend more time with my cousins
5. Take a family trip with at least one family member
6. Keep in touch with my niece at least once a week for a month
7. Talk to my grandmother twice a week for one month
8. Cook dinner for my family
9. Help my mother organize the house
10. Spend more time with Jamison and Dee
11. Talk to Jameikia more
12. Do something nice for my grandmother
13. Take my mother out for lunch
14. Create a family photo album
15. Pay a bill for my mother
16. Drive my father somewhere
17. Be a cook for a holiday family dinner.
18. Spend a day with my brother
19. Do something nice for my brother

:: For my Professional Growth & Finances ::

1. Buy $500 worth of Savings Bonds
2. Save $5000 and have it in a high interest account
3. Have an emergency account with $1000 in it
4. Enroll in Med School
5. Volunteer/Work at a hospital
6. Become a Business Minor
7. Have my resume professionally done.
8. Learn a little French
9. Buy my first car
10. Be on top of work assignments and finish things before they are done
11. Keep an accurate record of all my spending for 3 months
12. Pay off my car in 3 years

:: For Others ::

1. Give a sincere compliment/accolade to a different person for an entire month.
2. Volunteer for 2 days
3. Donate all the clothing and shoes that I no longer need to charity.
4. Donate $1 for each Goal on this list unaccomplished.
5. Tell a school worker in a letter how great they are.

100 Make a care package to send toWWW.ANYSOLDIER.COM 
101.Anonymously do something for someone else that will have a positive impact on their life