Wednesday, June 10, 2009

We're Just Ordinary People

I can't believe that this is my fourth year in college. My last and final year. Thank the Lord for blessing me and allowing me to see this day!!



I'm in summer school now, and it's so durn intense. I hate the teacher, but I will presevere...hopefully with an A. Physics is no joke. It's about 10 of us in the class, and we joke if we can get through this class, I KNOW we can get into med school. He teacher for 2.5 hours a day so...you know it's tiring.



Since I'm in summer school I have no life. No more catching up with friends, unless it's on the weekend :(. When i have time I just sleep and sleep and sleep LOL. I've cut a lot of people out of my life and introduced a few into my life.



I have learned not to rely on "friends" too much. I'm trying to revamp my true friends. I don't know if I posted about it earlier, but I feel as if I have drifted so far away from my old "best friends". They are interested in partying, clubbing, sexing, and etc. You know the life of a college student. I'm just not into that. I've never been. Sometimes I just want to go out with them and catch up on life, but they would rather meet up @ the club and etc. If it's not surrounded around that, they're not up for it. We've been friends since high school, but I understand that people change and friendship drift. It's cool.



My other friend, I feel like I have to play the "Rules" with her. That's why I decided to get my distance. When I call, she doesn't answer. When I txt, I might not get one back until days and days later. When i don't call she worries about me and wonders where have I been. *shrugs* Friendships are supposed to be 50/50 right? Why can't you call me? We have a great friendship when we are close to each other, but with distance the friendship goes out the window. You know the phrase, "He's just not that into you?" That's I feel with her even though she's a female. *tsk tsk* She knows she is my bff because from time to time I have told her, but she has never said it back. That says a lot to me. She is as sweet as pie, but I dunno i think she sticks around for other reasons.



I think after graduation I'm going to change my phone number and just add whoever is needed. Start anew and clear my contacts that I don't use much.



Other than that everything is fine. The weather is beautiful, everything is going as according to plans, and I'm happy. YAAAAY! TTYL lemme go study!



My song for today is Ordinary People. (duh because of the subject) I make mistakes in life and go through my ups and downs, but I'm still just an ordinary person. Ups and Downs is to be expected. I will never know all the answers to life, or pretend I do.



"We're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go"