I hate that I waited until my last year to let people know of my talents, but hey whatever goes. I actually wrote thsi poem to dedicate it to a guy that absolutely gave me the run around. Acted like he loved me. Told me the words, but his actions didn't speak the same. And I followed him like a lil puppy dog lol, until I finally saw through the fog and realized I'm not an average chick and shouldn't be treated as such. I had to kick him out my world, but not before he heard this poem.... Enjoy

He says he loves me.
He’ll say it tomorrow
Cuz he’s said it before…but
He only confesses his love behind closed doors…and
Like a vampire by day our love is no more…but
He says he loves me

See this is the story of a million and two
When you love a man
But he does NOT love you
But he loves the idea that he sees on youtube
He’s just looking for a victim and that victim is you

He told you
We’re just friends
But if yall just friends
Why are you treating him like like ya husband
His clothes in your closet, You cooking his meals
Ironing his clothes, help paying his bills
And for dessert you give him a lil cookie just to seal the deal
Cuz that man love you

See ladies we need to wake up and face the reality
That we deserve a relationship that will last for eternity
And when he claims that this relationship is
Just between you and me
That’s really him saying that he doesn’t value
Your love, your mind, or your intimacy

Then ya feelings hurt way down the line
Cuz you were playing wifey and avoided the signs
Like when he gave you that played out line
And one day told you what’s yours is mine
But when you need him he can’t even give you time of day.


But still you want to go steady
But unlike R. Kelly
It don’t seem like he’s ready…but

He’s ready for sexing and texting and rubbing you up and
Calling you at 3 o clock in the morning
Just to say what’s up
But this man loves you

But reality speaks to me and says he loves you not
Cuz “yall just friends”
Which means he’s not your man
Or have you forgot
And he just want eff every girl in the world
And girl you ain't special
And you just happened to be Tuesday’s girl.


See a man loves a woman with boundaries
That doesn’t beat around the bush
To tell that brother how to please
Her..like
Open my car doors, call me your boo,
Go to church with me, say we were meant to be, and before you explore my body you must understand my values and insecurities.
Cause you say you love me.


Ladies we’ve all been the victim of love
In fact, we’ll prolly be it again
But next time that you’re cooking and cleaning and
Screaming and feening
Ladies let that man be your future husband
And not
JUST A FRIEND.

It's been two months since my last post huh?! Well...I'm NOT dead I promise! I've just been very busy with school! So much is happening in my life. Someone should have told me how bad of an idea it is to take Organic Chemistry, Physics, Immunology, Botany, Leadership in Action 401, Senior Seminar, and Regular Seminar at the same time. Yes count it up. 19 hours. I WILL SURVIVE!! lol

So far I'm passing everything, but it could be better lol. So I'e been MIA trying to stay up in the books!

I ran across this scripture, and it just made me think.

For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul.
-Mark 8:36

I can remember a few years from today, I used to wish for so much. I used to wish to change everything about my inner and outer appearance. I just wanted the opportunity to feel loved, wanted, and able to do all the things that others around me were doing and experiencing. So, I began to do man little things such as get new hairstyle, new clothing style, makeup, new friends, but in the process I almost lost the most important person, me. I woke up that day and realized sometimes it is good to be selfish. All that matters is me. My happiness. And it shouldn't involve other people's perceptions, thoughts, and wants of me.

I'm on life's rollercoaster, and no one is in the front seat but me and God. Ain't that a blessing? That's all for now! Love ya!