It's raining right. Dim lights, music softly playing in the background of my car driving down the highway. Tears dripping down like a faulty water faucet, eyes big as saucers, but heart caramelized, hard as rock. So then he calls. "Turn around. Kris sweetie turn around. Talk to me" So now he's racing to catch up with me, but can never catch up, to my heart that is.

Turn around means letting down my guard and the decision to keep going means to keep my guard up, but be sadly disappointed. Decisions Decisions...

And the story is to be continued....

So let's play a little catch up.

I have a new boo, sadly he doesn't make my "Bedrock." I love the person he is. I love the gentleman he is. He is so kind, so sweet, such a gentleman. He respects my wishes and dreams, supports me in all my endeavors, BUT one thing holds me back from giving my all and my heart to him. He is boring. I'm so spontaneous, so outgoing, so out there and with him I just keep "playing it safe." I think I needed to meet him in my life to understand how I want and will learn in the future to demand how to be treated. My new boo wherever he may be will open my doors, call me just because, go to church with me, genuinely love me, and be a man because I am his girl.

But for right now, I think I just want my single life back. Sorry.

I feel bad because I didn't figure this out until AFTER we got together. It's been a week and I just know it won't work sadly. We don't have much in common other than intelligence and we just don't click. Sad, but oh so true. I'm not even physically attracted to him. It's bad when you don't even want to kiss your own boyfriend. At the end of the day I fell in love with his behavior, but not him. That's a bad place to be. But we all learn from out mistakes right?