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Meet Laura Izibor. She's my new music crush! Her debut single was "From My Heart to Yours" in 2008, and she's been recording and blowing up ever since then. I think she is so beautiful. She has striking facial features, and I'm loving her style. Check her out!

Like I said earlier, I'm trying to get into the hang of applying makeup. I've always loved to play in makeup, but haha I've never been very good at it. I've been playing a lot more lately though.

In the previous colors I told yall, my fave colors are Pink, Purple, and Green. I was initiated into Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority in November 2008, so I can't hate on the green. I will always look PRETTY in my pink and GORGEOUS in my green while serving all of mankind in numerous community service projects. So this look is my dedication to Alpha Kappa Alpha. I messed up (I look too red!), but hey life is all about trying over and over again right?

Foundation: Mary Kay 607 Medium Coverage
Concealer: Black Radiance Concealer Stick in Medium
Lipgloss: Black Radiance Whisper Pink
Blush: Black Radiance Plum Sorbet
Eyes: HIP Shocking Shadow Pigment in Fiery Pink and Rebel Green
Brushes: Essence of Beauty Deluxe Duo Set

My nickname used to be KrazynKute. I've had it all of my technology based life haha. After awhile, things got old, and I changed my name to SimplyKomplex (or SimpleKomplexity)

If you look back on your life, you tend to notice many things that you never realized along the path. I know I can say that. When I look back I often think of rain and thunderstorms, but I rarely remember the rainbow that immediately follows. Funny huh?

2 Years ago....2007. 19 years old , in college, and loving it, I was in the midst of starting new parts of my life, and ending many others.

Love Life- I had just broken up with my boyfriend. My first one at that. He cheated on me with his fiance...and then cheated on both of us with a girl on campus. In the love traingle..(or rectangle) I could never see the clear points. Only curved corners. I continued to blame myself. I wished he would come back. I had it embedded in my mind that I deserved his mistreating, and despite his flaws I could change him and we could be together forever. He would be the only one, therefore I had to make the best of it.

Almost 2 years later, I look back and laugh at the times we had. What's changed? No longer do I look at my recollections with tear-drizzled sunglasses on. I see it all. I see his flaws (as well as my own) and his perfections. I have come to realize that no one deserves to be mistreated regardless of color, beauty, intellect, disability, and etc. But the person mistreated does deserve to stick up for themself and know when it's time to leave.

Happiness- A million posts have been made about the tears I have cried alone in my room. Surrounded by so many people, I always felt alone. Although, I'm not fully there, now I have realized that it is not "You against the world." It's not the pretty vs the ugly. Life is not a story of Beauty and the Beast. Disability factors should be thrown out the window because a disability is a state of mind. With all the unecessary factors thrown out, the most important one is more evident. Yourself. Sounds selfish but Me, Me, Me is the key to my happiness. Nothing more nothing less.

Words on disability- I wrote as a freshman that "I would never change the fact that I have a disability [it has helped me see the world from many perspectives and dimensions that others will never see]. Rejoicefully....that has not changed although it has yo yoed a lot throughout the past 2 years. I have come to a point of my life that I am who I am and no one can take that away from me. I walk with a limp, slowly at that, posture surgically perfect, but despite all of this, when I enter the room my head is always high and my presence is always known. And everyone has that ability. Disability or not.

Comfort- I can say I'm comfortable now. Maybe I should change my name to "Comforter" for REAL now...for other reasons. It took a long time....but I realize that materialistic things don't make me. Surprisingly I already knew that. I remember I used to walk into stores and everytime I tried on clothes I asked myself, "Does this help me look normal?" I wanted to fit in. Really high heels, makeup, and thousands of dollars later lol, I finally realized WHO THE HECK WANTS TO BE NORMAL ANYWAY?

I can walk into a place...and not wonder if everyone is watching me. (Who cares if they are?) I can treat myself (alone) to a good book, manicure, meal, movie, or etc (and not say say it's "stupid or boring") (This is a work in progress too though lool) And it's all about being comfortable with yourself. You are who you are. I no longer want to "reinvent" myself because....then...I wouldn't be...myself. And I for a fact no she's one of the most beautiful people on the inside (and a lot of the times on the out too haha) [conceited moment]

This blog could continue and continue. Just remember the most important thing. 2 years changes a lot. Life is all about change, and if you can look back and notice you haven't changed at all...you're doing something wrong. Hopefully that change is for the good.

Flaws are still evident within myself. I admit, sometimes I look at my posts and cringe lol. But, I try to no longer give them attention...I focus on the positive and some kind of the way...I guess the flaws get lonely and fade into the background. But anyway....


KrazynKute...Where is she now? She is still right here...just Simply more Komplex. The same song, but a different tune and new rules to the game.

I'm still working on this whole makeup thing haha. Shoutouts to ThePerfectScore!! She is an awesome Youtuber for makeup tutorials and a LOT more! Here's her link: http://theperfectscore-zia.blogspot.com/

My fave colors are Purple and Pink. I often add green to that collection for various reasons, but mostly, I love everything purple and pink. Because of that I decided to try a Pink and Purple FOTD. It is very very basic for now, because haha I suck with all things makeup.

I tried to create a subtle change from pink to light purple/pink to dark purple. Empasis is on the eyes and the lips are slightly downplayed.

I used:
Blush- MAC Sweet as Cocoa
Ligloss- Some Juicy Loreal Color (sorry)
Eyeshadow: HIP High Intensity Pigment Fiery Pink, and HIP Duos (Only the purple shadows) Flamboyant, and Wicked
Mascara- Covergirl's LashExact

Enuff words! Time for the pics!!

I claimed I wasn't gonna buy anything when I went out but of course I lied. I have been looking for a new fragrance. Gotta continue to make the boyz go LOCO. haha. I decided on this L.A.M.B. scent since it was only $20! Couldn't beat it! I LOVE the scent and it's not a toillete spray, It's Eau de Parfum! YAY!! Hopefully it'll stay on for awhile. We'll see.

It's 11:00 PM. I got in 15 minutes ago. My mom called me at 10:30 pm. She knew exactly where I was and who I was with. I was with the same guy. Him, his dad, and his friend picked me up. We went to his house. She called, and when I told her I was on my way home, she hung up in my face. (Side note: she told me it did not look right for me to be in the car with 5 other males. I told her it was 3 and one of them was the guy's father. She told me that is not ladylike at all.)

She really irritates me to high heavens. I guess because I am "a girl" I should be confined to my house and "home before dark". I had more freedom in hgih school, and that's saying a lot because I couldn't do anything in high school unless it was school related.

I really thinks it boils down to the sex thing. I got into it with her in January about I was on birth control therefore I MUST be having sex. Now everytime I'm out with a boy, she thinks I'm possibly having sex with that person. Especially if I am with them after dark. Oh and I'm a ho. I'ma be preggo soon I guess lol.

I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't. If I stay in the house all day and stay on the computer I am "depressed". If I am not depressed I'm not doing anything constructive with my life. BUT she doesn't want me to get a summer job. She wants me to relax. If I go out everyday, she says I'm being "fast in the streets" and that's not ladylike.

If I stay in all day, I need to get out more. If I'm on the phone she feels is necessary to give me relationship tips. You know the ones she should have given to me growing up nto when I am 21 years old and have my own paradigm about the world.

I wish I could scream to her. I'm making good grades. I'm not having sex. Been abstinent for 7 months. Plan on keeping it that way until I'm in along term committed relationship. I'm not doing anything illegal. I don't think... lol Anyway, Not doing anything I shouldn't be doing. I am 21. I respect her wishes, but I am an adult. I should have the right for her to trust me and know that she raised me right and I will come in a decent hour and uphold the morals she taught me growing up. But I am unfortunately a 4'4.5 child. I have no say.

And she wonders why I don't come home often. Maybe once every 2 months. When I leave July 31, she prolly won't see me til Labor Day. Just being honest.

I was talking to an associate .... I am totally convinced that all children with disabilities until the age of 25 need psychiatric help to build the way they see themselves because so many negative people around them will demolish what any self respect and dignity they have for yourself.

I mean how can you feel beautiful when people are always asking you dumb arse questions like, "Do you pee in a diaper?" , "Why do you look like that," and "Dang, that means you can't have sex huh?" comes at you daily."

Or you know the others who stare at me like I'm Paris Hilton while I'm doing something simple like at Wal-Mart. That's society for ya. Well excuse me, this represents some people of society with no home training. I could easily be a celeb, cuz I'm treated like one now. Random people take camera pics of me walking, and point and tell their friends I'm a midget. lool. Or come up to me and ask me how old am I since I look like 16.

Back to the point. I have not met not ONE girl with the disability I have (which is mild) or more severe that does not have self-image issues. I do have a better perspective than some others I must agree. This girl told me I talk so confidently. I am so jovial most of the time and don't seem to be affected by a disability.

But behind the confidence, she told me I must realize that the disability is there. Society definately knows it's there. Therefore, I can think very highly of myself, but what it boils down to is how society thinks of you. Society wants you to live in a bubble of seperation and unhappiness. It sets boundaries and rules for you that it doesn't want you to conform. Society doesn't expect for you to get more than a high school diploma if that. Society tells you one thing such as disabled peopke have every right to live a normal life, but then gives you hell when you get up off ya *** and try to get a job or decent housing. It's just rediculous. It's just a cruel world for a girl with a disability seeking normality. By this time I had heard enough. I can't life, she makes good points, but I told her D.A.M.N society. SOCIETY Doesn't Affect My Normality (or normalacy).

Part of my line name is O.B.A.M.A. Stands for Overcoming Boundaries and Making Aspirations. (Yeah I have the best line name in the world.) Overcoming boundaries is exactly what I do, and it's a rule we should all follow. Life has no boundaries. It is only full of the boundaries you have made and suppressed yourself with.

Society can kiss my wheelchair tires. I have my slip ups, but I had to bury society a loooong time ago. It hold a person back. You should feel the same. Don't allow yourself to be a statistic. Don't let society set the "rules" of your life. Make your own statistics and rules. Go above and beyond your dreams.

Yeah it's a dream that I live in that one of these days disability advocacy will be efficient and their will be more opportunities for those who are disabled to live their lives to the fullest of their ability.

But, If you don't have a dream, how you gonna make a dream come true?

Just another story of my dad lol

Dad to my mom: "Bev, Why the heck did Michael name that little boy Blanket"

Me: "You don't like that name? Why wouldn't someone their child Blanket?"

Daddy: ".....Alright. I'ma start calling you Comforter and see how you like it"

FAST FORWARD TO TODAY

Dad: "COMFORTER!!........COMFORTER!!!! Comforter, Where the heck did you go?! Come crack these windows in this car in this heat before you break something I got to pay for!

**Neighbors looking krazy**

Dad: "Kris. I mean Comforter. My point exactly"

July 4th was a HAWT and HOTT day! I was looking for a very natural but soft look.  I usually love bright colors, but I wanted to do something different. I wanted to play up on my eyes, but look very natural (almost plain jane). I think I did good!  I used:

Happy July 4th Everyone!! All is well with me!! Eat enough bar b que for me!! I know I will! Summer session I has ended. THANK GOD! I have 2 A's so far! Nothing else to add!

What the Caged bird Sang,

I can't believe that this is my fourth year in college. My last and final year. Thank the Lord for blessing me and allowing me to see this day!!



I'm in summer school now, and it's so durn intense. I hate the teacher, but I will presevere...hopefully with an A. Physics is no joke. It's about 10 of us in the class, and we joke if we can get through this class, I KNOW we can get into med school. He teacher for 2.5 hours a day so...you know it's tiring.



Since I'm in summer school I have no life. No more catching up with friends, unless it's on the weekend :(. When i have time I just sleep and sleep and sleep LOL. I've cut a lot of people out of my life and introduced a few into my life.



I have learned not to rely on "friends" too much. I'm trying to revamp my true friends. I don't know if I posted about it earlier, but I feel as if I have drifted so far away from my old "best friends". They are interested in partying, clubbing, sexing, and etc. You know the life of a college student. I'm just not into that. I've never been. Sometimes I just want to go out with them and catch up on life, but they would rather meet up @ the club and etc. If it's not surrounded around that, they're not up for it. We've been friends since high school, but I understand that people change and friendship drift. It's cool.



My other friend, I feel like I have to play the "Rules" with her. That's why I decided to get my distance. When I call, she doesn't answer. When I txt, I might not get one back until days and days later. When i don't call she worries about me and wonders where have I been. *shrugs* Friendships are supposed to be 50/50 right? Why can't you call me? We have a great friendship when we are close to each other, but with distance the friendship goes out the window. You know the phrase, "He's just not that into you?" That's I feel with her even though she's a female. *tsk tsk* She knows she is my bff because from time to time I have told her, but she has never said it back. That says a lot to me. She is as sweet as pie, but I dunno i think she sticks around for other reasons.



I think after graduation I'm going to change my phone number and just add whoever is needed. Start anew and clear my contacts that I don't use much.



Other than that everything is fine. The weather is beautiful, everything is going as according to plans, and I'm happy. YAAAAY! TTYL lemme go study!



My song for today is Ordinary People. (duh because of the subject) I make mistakes in life and go through my ups and downs, but I'm still just an ordinary person. Ups and Downs is to be expected. I will never know all the answers to life, or pretend I do.



"We're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go"

I make a lot of posts and blogs on here so i know yall ahve heard numeroous stories about my dad. He's a character. I just wanted to post a few conversations or recollect on some things that have made me smile or giggle over the years.



I asked my dad to hold my nephew for a minute while I fix the babe some food. How about when I come back my dad is holdin this child to the china cabinet whisperin, "When you get a lil bit bigger, I'll teach you everything. Like how to open these cabinets. Your grandma think we all stupid. Everybody know she keep candy and sprite in there. And if you share with me, I'll teach you ALL THE HIDING SPOTS OF THE HOUSE!! There's a whole bunch of sh*t....I mean stuff in this house for you to find!"

....I just died and went to laughter heaven

Kristen: Do I have a curfew?
Dad: Look Kris. Me and ya mom are old. We don't have time to be runnign up behind you. You bout the age now where u can just raise yaself right? You know us old people go to bed at 8pm. If ya a** mess up and get in trouble after 8pm and somehow end up in jail. Just remember that you gonna stay in there until morning. Cuz we're old, go to bed early, and we're deaf. We can't hear when they give you that 1 phone call to call us at 2am. Just do right. Don't get pregnant, don't do drugs, eat ya vegetables all that good stuff.

Little kid: Why is she in a wheelchair
Dad: (Doesn't know what to say)....Um...she has a disease called laziness. She just lazy. Reaaaaaaal lazy.

Dad: (69 yrs old) Kris you know any new dances?
Kris: Not really
Dad: What the h*** they teaching you up there? You're in a sorority right? You should know how to do the stanky leg and stuff!

Dad: (SK's mom), have you taught Kris stuff that gurls suppose to know. You know like how to walk in heels and switch when you walk
SK's mom: No, I teach her VALUABLE things like obedience, patience,
Dad: Well that good. I teach her all the IMPORTANT stuff then like telling them guys where the h*** to go when they act up

Kris: (1st grade) I'm not going back to school
Dad: Why?
Kris: They're going to kill Barney if I go back.
Dad: Not to worry. I killed him yesterday, but they said he died of natural causes. You going to school tommorrow.

Kris: HAPPY BIRTHDYA DADDY!! You're 69!!
Dad; Kris..you haven't heard? When you turn 65 you can skip birthdays. It's on that lil AARP card. I'm not celebrating this year. I'll be 69 next year. Thanx though

This summertime has made me realize that some of the people whom I claim are so close to me are in fact farther on their side of the line. There are two people in my life right now that I would give my world too. I would do anything to protect and make sure these people are happy because I love them dearly, but lately I've been noticing that maybe they don't feel the same. Because of this, next school year I will focus on making more friendship that are not so one sided, and hopefully I'll end the year great.

I'm just noticing things that I never realized. It's this one guy in particular that I am krazy about. Even though I have weighed my options and I know these dude is not even in my league. Isn't very very bright, not financially stable, no long term goals, but his personality is wonderful. He is so funny and has a lot of street smarts. I love his personality and how he is so sweet and because of that I consider him a close friend. I told him how I feel about our relationship, and how I wish we would take things further. He said a mere, "Ok." Well, we live 30 minutes away from each other. I told him i would love for us to chill and hang out over the summer since we are only 20-25 minutes away from each other. He said cool.

Instead he drove 4 hours to see one of my close friends that he is clearly head over heels for but doesn't want to admit it. He has come to see me once, but only because I had something of his possession that he had left on campus. No phone calls, no texts to say hello, nada. On campus, this is a person I saw and hung out with EVERYDAY. He knew if he needed something, I would always be there. I called him a few times and told him I missed him, and I texted him to make sure he was okay. Then I got to thinking, why am I doing this again. Why am I allowing him to be my priority when I am a mere option in his life. I deserve better. I ceased the calls and texts until he decided to pick up the phone and check on me. Relationship even friendship are 50/50.

Then the other situation is my supposedly best friend. Even though I have told her she is my best friend, she has never said the same. That's cool, I understand that she probably has others that she is closer to but dang. She was my roomate for a whole summer, and I was her RA for a whole year. We spent everyday together doing God knows what and we are there for each other. Now all of a sudden, I haven't heard from her since she left campus. It's like a smack in the damn face.

I used to call her over holiday breaks, but then I realized that she never answers her phone. I used to txt her, but txts go unanswered. I finally got fed up. I texted her one day when I first got home, and just stopped after she didn't respond. I feel used. I really do. I think one of my biggest problems is that I don't like confrontations. She has done other things that I didn't agree with, btu I let it slide. I didn't like the fact that she has gone the whole mile for others, but on my birthday we really didn't do much. I had to beg her to go out with me and some other friends after I was down about not doing anything for my bday. I didn't get any gifts from my probate not even a mere congratulations, but she stayed up all night making gifts and buying things for her other summer roommate. I kidna feel the only reason why she "kept peace" with me and kept a friendship with me is because I let her drive my car to work because I knew she didn't have a way. Now that I look back, it makes you think huh. Maybe the great friendships that I think I have with people are nonexistent.

This happens every year though. It makes me look back and see what is it about me that hinders me from having strong friendships, because I haven't had any long lived ones since middle/high school. I wish someone would just tell me. Until then, I'm going to continue to enjoy my summer, learn my way around Jackson with my GPS lol, and improve on a few things before school starts in the fall.

Krissie

It's one of my most shameful thoughts that as days go by I still try to shake, but I continue to think I am undeserving of love.  I feel so much resentment to those who have lives in which they are able to enjoy and experience love and joy with another.  

Nothing much goign on here! I'm on spring break and I am having a blast so far! My great aunt died last weeks o I was really down, but I had to realize everythign happens for a reason and she's in a better place. I went to my Alpha Kappa Alpha conference and had a LOT of fun! We got back on Sunday and then I spent the whole day with my best friend shopping and going out to eat. It was a LOT of fun. Then today I let my GPS get me lost and I drove 3 hrs to my house :) Now I'm just chillin and tryna keep up on my frugality mission. So far so good! I'll post pictures later!

I'm listening to Outkast. Can you tell? lol I couldn't think of anything to name this post. Nothing big has been going on in my life. I'm thinking about starting a website...but I don't know how much time I'm going to commit to it, so we'll see. 

I asked my dad to hold my nephew for a minute while I fix the babe some food. How about when I come back my dad is holdin this child to the china cabinet whisperin, "When you get a lil bit bigger, I'll teach you everything. Like how to open these cabinets. Your grandma think we all stupid. Everybody know she keep candy and sprite in there. And if you share with me, I'll teach you ALL THE HIDING SPOTS OF THE HOUSE!! There's a whole bunch of sh*t....I mean stuff in this house for you to find!

....I just died and went to laughter heaven